Words by: Anthea Bernabe Witoelar
Art by: Jenny Nguyen 

Discovering my sexual turn-offs made me question all that I knew. As a person who had unlimited access to the internet and read a lot of Wattpad stories, I thought I knew what I enjoyed. Like most teenagers, I thought I knew everything. Like most teenagers, I was wrong. 

Personally, I find domination very attractive. Holding power over me, both literally and mentally, is a type of foreplay that will forever keep me weak. Whether they are just staring me down mentally to actually holding me down physically, the power they hold over me is something I find very attractive.

I remember lying down on a sofa with an acquaintance who was looking directly down at me. When our eyes met and he held that power over me, something inside me shifted. Just being at the hands of someone else had me in a mental chokehold. It’s like I’m under a spell, and whatever witch blessed me with this curse is working overtime as it is yet to disappear.

On the other hand, in my sexual endeavours, I’ve come across things I don’t find very attractive. 

It was haunted house night at my school. I got pulled aside midway and ended up in another room to hook up with the guy doing the pulling. The room we landed in had windows looking inwards from the courtyard. Let’s just say anyone who landed out there had front row seats to our private show. 

As reality began to hit midway through the hookup, I realised how exposed I was and had to stop it there. As I told him my reasoning, it hit me that he enjoyed the thrill of being caught. 

The spectrum of freakiness is endless. Someone can always out-freak you. And some can match you to a T. So take this as the opportunity to debunk all that you know and learn more about yourself. The more you know, the more you enjoy.